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hi, I'mZayaan Syed

I spend a lot of time wondering how the universe began. The rest goes on long novels and lead guitar.

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Intro

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Zayaan beside an old bronze cannon, with a domed mosque and two minarets behind him
Istanbul

About

I am interested in cosmology and the early universe.

I have read a fair amount about it outside school, mostly from books and lecture videos, and I would like to study it formally. I also play guitar. I am not sure yet which part of physics I will end up in, but the early universe is the part I keep coming back to.

Physics

13.8 billion years

Why physics, and why cosmology in particular: the biggest questions there are, answered with mathematics.

Time since the Big Bang · log scaleseconds
CosmologyAstronomyMathematics

The questions that pull me in

Three questions I keep returning to. What does it mean to ask what happened before the universe began, if time itself may have started then? Why is the universe so uniform on large scales and so uneven on small ones? And why do the equations that describe the early universe work so well when the conditions cannot be reproduced or tested directly?

I became interested in physics through reading about cosmology outside school. I did not understand most of it at first, which is part of why I kept reading. I would like to study it properly rather than continuing on my own.

  1. Reading

    The Inflationary Universe, Alan Guth · The First Three Minutes, Steven Weinberg · The Character of Physical Law, Richard Feynman

  2. Watching

    Alan Guth, The Early Universe, MIT OpenCourseWare · 3Blue1Brown · PBS Space Time

  3. At university

    Cosmology and the early universe.

Books

The shelf

Twenty-one books I keep coming back to: big American novels, quiet English ones, two Russians, Ishiguro twice, Tartt twice, and the comics I grew up on.

Right now I am reading Tender Is the Night by F. Scott Fitzgerald.

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Small Things Like These

Claire Keegan

Bill Furlong delivers coal to a convent laundry in a small Irish town and finds a girl locked inside. What he does next is the whole book. It is about conscience, and Furlong is never made into a hero. That is why it stays with me.

The Snow Child

Eowyn Ivey

A childless couple on an Alaskan homestead builds a girl out of snow, and in the morning her footprints lead into the woods. It is a book about wanting something badly enough to half-believe it into being. The grief in it is never named, but it is on every page.

The Remains of the Day

Kazuo Ishiguro

Stevens spends his life being correct and misses what mattered. The prose is very controlled, so the sadness only reaches you after you finish. It is a book about the difference between duty and a life, and about how long it can take to notice the difference.

Music

Lead guitar

Sweet Child O' Mine0:45

In the clip I am playing "Sweet Child O' Mine." Music is how I switch off. When I play, I stop thinking about everything else for a while, and I usually feel better afterwards. It is the part of my day I look forward to.

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      Writing

      Notes

      Short pieces on things I keep thinking about.

      Say hello

      Happy to talk about the early universe, Ishiguro, or guitar tone.